A few weeks ago, I had a parent-teacher meeting (ptm) that my sister attended as my guardian. And during ptm, I told my teachers that I would put in effort to study during the holidays.
BUT OOPS.
I didn't.
It's now the last week of holidays and that familiar feeling of regret has once again hit me straight in my face. I have so much work undone. And I keep telling myself that I can do this. The reason why I told myself I could do this was because I thought a had gained a back my ex-usual motivation of 'if you don't study, you gon' fail so bad'. My motivation has changed ever since sec 3. Failing A Math in the first semester kind got me accustomed to failing. It wasn't as bad as I thought.
Being comfortable with failure was what I wanted because I wanted an impact that goes like 'Failing is fine, it gives you perspective to help you do better, you will bounce back stronger than ever.' Instead, it had an impact of 'nah, I'm used to failing.'
Hopefully, I can bring back a slight fear of failure to propel my motivation and determination to do well.
It is too late for me to work hard and do well for Common Tests 2.
It's NOT TOO LATE for me to work hard and do better for Prelims and do well for A's.
This is the last shot I got at major major major examinations. And I'm not going to let it go down the drain without me trying to get it back.
The countdown begins NOW. Four Months and 1 week left.
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