U

I see U everywhere.

EVERYWHERE.

For real tho, cause I have straight Us for Common Test 1. Except for GP, I got an E for that.

I had to meet to P. THE BIG P. In her office. With my sis :)

This isn't something to be proud of. And it has really motivated to study harder. I only have 5 months left to A levels to learn everything from this year AND last year. I hope to raise my grades by at least 2 grades by Common Test 2. I hope I can.

But I'm not sure of it.

I feel like I've distanced myself from my friends to study harder. It kinda works, I don't know. I just know that I'm putting in more effort to do work. And I'm starting to put in the same amount of effort as before because I'm starting to understand schoolwork.

Previously, I was very discouraged to learn because the way I learn is kinda different from my friends. I really need to understand something before I can learn it. If I don't understand it, I can't learn. If I can't learn, I can't remember it. Only when I've truly understood can I learn.

So I always ask weird questions that people usually don't ask.

Most of the times, teachers would just go with the flow and teach me in the way that I understand.

My favourite kind of teachers are those who don't discourage me from finding out more in order to help myself understand. I really hate teachers who tell me to "just memorise". I'm not learning anything. And I reeeeeeeaaaaaally hate the teachers who tell me to "just memorise", and when I comply and just memorise, they scold me for simply memorising. Like, I did ask you how and why things work but you told me not to understand. UGH.

If you are able to teach me something, it's great. For you. Because it takes some skills to teach me how things work because I always see things another way. You would need to change my perspective.

I really thank the people /not only my teachers/ who have had the patience so far to slowly teach me even tho it's really frustrating to do so. It's some tough work. I think if I were you, I wouldn't be able to teach myself.