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Hey.

I don't know a lot of things /I admit/ including how to start off this blog, so there. I just finished watching the first four episodes of HIMYM annnnnnnnd then sat my butt down to write (type) this blog.

First thing's first, the reason I started this new blog: to type whatever I want to type. No, it won't be insensitive. Yes, it COULD be a little inappropriate. No matter what, I will be typing whatever shit I need/want to say.

Also, the name! Raining Sunshines? Pshhhh.... Yeah, that's what it is. I was actually in the shower thinking of a name for the blog and I wanted one that has meaning to it. So basically, Raining Sunshines, it's an oxymoron. How can it even rain sunshines. Like, it should be raining rainwater /duh/. I picture this oxymoron as little pockets of sunshine penetrating through the tightly interlinked dark clouds hovering over me. The sunshine represents the positivity while the dark parts represents... Negativity. There definitely, and I mean DEFINITELY, will be negativity in these posts. But there will be positivity. And I don't want to just plainly focus on the positive parts and forget the negative parts. Because all these parts will be woven together what I call my life. My life will be incomplete without either one. It needs balance. /also a disclaimer, others may disagree to my interpretation of 'Raining Sunshines', but it is the interpretation that I need. Plus this interpretation may change over time as I grow./

Soooooooooooooo the url of the blog. There's already another blog that has taken up the name 'Raining Sunshines' /and there's a song sung by Miranda Cosgrove of the same name/. I had to get a url with meaning. So I thought, why not Little Black Umbrella. I do have a little black umbrella that I recently bought from uniqlo. That cool shit. Anyway, for an extended period of time, I wanted to get a yellow umbrella. I wanted it to match my yellow Converse school bag /not because of HIMYM/. And also because I didn't know what colour to get, so I went with the above reason.

The thing is, I didn't get the yellow umbrella in the end. I was so hell bent on getting it that I tried to buy it off a friend's hands. I changed my mind recently and was pretty surprised with myself. Like wow, after almost a year of wanting a yellow umbrella, I got something else in a flash. I started to feel a little guilty, to feel like I am a really fickle person. Then I thought to myself, why not. Why not? Why not. This black umbrella may not be what I wanted or what I thought I wanted. But it will serve it's purpose. If I did get a yellow umbrella, would it be of equal quality or better? The black umbrella could really do well for me. Give it a try. C'mon. All I wanted was the colour yellow. I did try to find a good umbrella, but I couldn't. I wouldn't give it up. But that black umbrella, that black umbrella made me feel like 'Hey buddy, let me bring you home.'

I found two things to learn from this umbrella thing.

One, appearance is not everything. I wanted yellow so bad, but black is doing so well for me. Go for the quality.

Two, umbrellas are just umbrellas. Why am I spending so much time just to get an umbrella hahahaha. Seriously tho, making decisions can be tough, but when that right intuition finds it's way to your soul, grab on to it as tight as you can. Don't shut other possibilities out too.

This umbrella is etched in my memories. It made me feel all kinds of funny. Funny how something small can trouble me for months. And funny how this umbrella-decision-making is already over.

Ah, so that's practically it for this post. Buh Bye.