Merry New Year

I MISSED OUT ON THE BOXING DAY SALES.

UGH. Another wasted Boxing Day.

Anyway, nothing much happened on Christmas Day itself too. I just went out with my family to Orchard Rd for Sushi Tei and we headed to MBS for umm.... I don't really know what we did there.

Just me and my siblings

My sis went out with her friends on Boxing Day so I decided to just stay at home.

"my sis invited me to eat delicious meatballs but i decided to be an ungrateful prick and t'pick r[ick prick preick" Yeah my sis typed that

I have tons of undone homework. Well, at least I attempted to do bio corrections for my huge  file, but my green pen ran out of ink. /It's fate/

And it's been raining A LOT lately. Like, whenever I go to the gym /and it's only been twice so far/ it's raining. But the persevering and excited me pushed myself to go to the gym. All was well until I stepped onto the weighing machine. UGH. I can only say that my weight when I was overweight is the weight I have now... NOT A GOOD THING. SOMEONE HELP ME. I might go on my 'no-food' diet like I did in Sec 1. It's really unhealthy to diet like that tho.

It's basically the weird period now when Christmas is over, but New Year's isn't. So what do I say? Merry Christmas or Happy New Year? Or maybe Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! /Merry New Year?/ But the fact is is that it's neither.

I'd better sleep now. Got a long schedule ahead of me tomorrow to complete my homework.

Christmas Eve

Wow, another year has passed. I remember this time last year I was in Taiwan. I think I was in Taipei...? Yeah... Good Timesssss...

Christmas Eve no longer feels like Christmas Eve no more. There ain't any Christmas lights, ham, log cake, presents... In fact, my Christmas tree is actually a snowman. Like, what? I'm not sure if I'll feel the festivity on Christmas day itself, but I know I'll be in a festive mood on Boxing Day. Y'know why? THE SALES!

Ugh, so excited for the sales.

Okay, I did nothing much today. Woke up at 2, slacked and painted my nails, had dinner with my family. That's it. Although I did pick up my guitar and play some songs.

It felt great. Like, really. It's been a few months since I played my guitar and I have to take some time to form the calluses back on the tips of my fingers. I used to dread playing it again when I haven't played for a long period of time. Now I kinda look forward to it. That numbing feeling is so comforting to me and strumming while I play always gives me a sense of achievement /that is if I successfully coordinate my voice and hands/.

You see, I realised that that numbness I feel in my fingertips, is actually a form of pain. It's not a sharp pain, neither is it a radiating pain or any other pain, but it is a pain. And this pain has become so familiar to me, I actually enjoy it. I don't understand why I'd enjoy it. Isn't pain supposed to be dreadful and upsetting and any and every other negative emotion. I feel good suffering from this pain.  I keep trying to think of why this pain is so enjoyable, but I can't think of a good enough reason.

I anticipate the day I do.

Future Plans

It's 2.45am. And I'm just sitting here, rewatching the last few episodes of Bu Bu Jing Xin. It's been 7 days since I finished watching it but I have been unable to get over it. All I do is think about the episodes. It's extremely depressing and it has practically taken over my life.

I keep hearing the songs in my head. I keep wondering what would have happened if I were actually the main character hahahaha. Imaginaaaaation. It makes me want to try on traditional Chinese costumes. It makes me want to have a relationship. But it is STUPID to get into a relationship just because of what I saw on a drama series haha.

I will get over this.

I hope.

Anyways, I need to plan out my life now. I've been wanting to try out acting for quite some time now. I want to see if I am really cut out for it. Or if I'm not. Honestly, I might not be able to act. I'm willing to research more about this. After all, trying new things out is inevitable and I should take advantage of it. I shall see where the research goes. :)

Woop Woop.

Hey.

I don't know a lot of things /I admit/ including how to start off this blog, so there. I just finished watching the first four episodes of HIMYM annnnnnnnd then sat my butt down to write (type) this blog.

First thing's first, the reason I started this new blog: to type whatever I want to type. No, it won't be insensitive. Yes, it COULD be a little inappropriate. No matter what, I will be typing whatever shit I need/want to say.

Also, the name! Raining Sunshines? Pshhhh.... Yeah, that's what it is. I was actually in the shower thinking of a name for the blog and I wanted one that has meaning to it. So basically, Raining Sunshines, it's an oxymoron. How can it even rain sunshines. Like, it should be raining rainwater /duh/. I picture this oxymoron as little pockets of sunshine penetrating through the tightly interlinked dark clouds hovering over me. The sunshine represents the positivity while the dark parts represents... Negativity. There definitely, and I mean DEFINITELY, will be negativity in these posts. But there will be positivity. And I don't want to just plainly focus on the positive parts and forget the negative parts. Because all these parts will be woven together what I call my life. My life will be incomplete without either one. It needs balance. /also a disclaimer, others may disagree to my interpretation of 'Raining Sunshines', but it is the interpretation that I need. Plus this interpretation may change over time as I grow./

Soooooooooooooo the url of the blog. There's already another blog that has taken up the name 'Raining Sunshines' /and there's a song sung by Miranda Cosgrove of the same name/. I had to get a url with meaning. So I thought, why not Little Black Umbrella. I do have a little black umbrella that I recently bought from uniqlo. That cool shit. Anyway, for an extended period of time, I wanted to get a yellow umbrella. I wanted it to match my yellow Converse school bag /not because of HIMYM/. And also because I didn't know what colour to get, so I went with the above reason.

The thing is, I didn't get the yellow umbrella in the end. I was so hell bent on getting it that I tried to buy it off a friend's hands. I changed my mind recently and was pretty surprised with myself. Like wow, after almost a year of wanting a yellow umbrella, I got something else in a flash. I started to feel a little guilty, to feel like I am a really fickle person. Then I thought to myself, why not. Why not? Why not. This black umbrella may not be what I wanted or what I thought I wanted. But it will serve it's purpose. If I did get a yellow umbrella, would it be of equal quality or better? The black umbrella could really do well for me. Give it a try. C'mon. All I wanted was the colour yellow. I did try to find a good umbrella, but I couldn't. I wouldn't give it up. But that black umbrella, that black umbrella made me feel like 'Hey buddy, let me bring you home.'

I found two things to learn from this umbrella thing.

One, appearance is not everything. I wanted yellow so bad, but black is doing so well for me. Go for the quality.

Two, umbrellas are just umbrellas. Why am I spending so much time just to get an umbrella hahahaha. Seriously tho, making decisions can be tough, but when that right intuition finds it's way to your soul, grab on to it as tight as you can. Don't shut other possibilities out too.

This umbrella is etched in my memories. It made me feel all kinds of funny. Funny how something small can trouble me for months. And funny how this umbrella-decision-making is already over.

Ah, so that's practically it for this post. Buh Bye.